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To Earth, We are

With the passing of yesterday, am I not glad to be able to breathe now. The past few weeks were madness. Lesson plans and presentations every other day and performance tasks and essays and whatnots. I swear, if this is what I am expected to do and if this is how I am expected to deliver, i.e. with no staggering deadlines, with unclear instructions, with unconveyed expectations, with unreceived feedback, with little or NO enduring understanding, PHISH! I don’t think the world is that inviting a place to live in.

But it is ok. It feels really good to look forward to the weekend and of course, the pay day every month. I am already thinking of what to buy for myself this time round. Maybe a few more books and DVDs and at least a pair of comfy shoes. The bills are being paid off slowly and YES! I’ve started repaying my laptop loan, which is a good thing because it FEELS good to see your loan amount getting smaller by the month.

AND YES! I’ve SURVIVED four months of NIE and there is about JUST ONE month to go. Before I have the LAST break ever of my lifetime and start wondering where they would send me for Practicum. But of course. Shall worry about that only later.

I just want to share that, doesn’t mean I am smiling in school, I don’t have things to think about. I have to go through shit too, many times. amidst assignments and school. And sometimes I received annoying sms during class, which seriously did distract me from focusing and disturbed my thoughts and got me all worried and angry and depressed. Financial outflow is more than my inflow and for the moment, I gave up trying to condone this indespicable phenomenon. Things did not go as planned, and what I thought were chances, turned out to be MY stupid pieces of WISHFUL THINKING. Of course, for all these things, I do feel tremendously frustrated.

But throughout all these nonsense, I learnt to compartmentalize my thoughts. I learnt to QUICKLY decide if that moment is important enough for me to be worried and frustrated about and if I can keep it aside, I would REALLY chuck it aside. I learnt to quickly allow frustration to overwhelm me and as quickly as it has formed, I forced it to dissipate too. It is really not easy to do these things. It takes too much of mental power. However, I feel that these are the better ways to handle unpleasant things  that come your way.

But somewhat, I feel ok.

Life is like that. If Life is just so full of roses all the time, why would He send us to Earth for… we might as well stay in Heaven.

So just keep on moving, and moving. Time won’t stay still to WAIT for us to get over things.